Monday, August 18, 2014

Small Changes

It's been a good couple weeks.  I made it into the 300s!  My next goal is to make it to under 370.  That was the weight I got to last time and if I can surpass this, I'll be feeling extra good.  But, as of today, 393.4.  That's 37 pounds lost so far!

Many evenings are still hard.  After I eat dinner, I want more and more and more.  Sometimes I prevail.  Once or twice a week, I do not.  I've started cross-stitching again to keep my hands and mind busy.  This has seemed to help.  If I'm craving food and I'm not hungry, I'm reaching for water instead.  I've also started walking farther and not using my scooter as much at work.  So, little changes here and there are adding up to big changes for me.

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Las Vegas

Right before I left for Vegas, I weighed myself.  I lost 4 more pounds that week for a total of 29.  For the record, I'm rounding up and saying 30, but it's really just 29.  I am thrilled.  401.

Vegas was great.  The conference was good and I had a good time with my friend from Texas.  We were missionary companions back in the day and we've been friends ever since.  It was good to see her and do things with her.  We went to a few shows and I spent my $35 on the slot machines.  That was a waste of money for sure.  They don't even let you win a little bit.  I'm cured of my desire to gamble.

So now for the eating part of the trip.  It turned out that I was in control of my money the entire trip (i.e. I had my credit cards in my possession.)  I had a bit of a hiccup at the airport.  I was feeling "Free at Last" and I bought a king-size Reeces.  Now that is not entirely off limits, but I probably should have just eaten  one cup and left the rest for later.  You see, I still can't control myself if that stuff is in my possession.  But I can proudly say that I successfully navigated the world of eating out most of the week.  I was leaving tons of food on my plate because I was full and I only had a bite or two of dessert.  There was an exception.  We ate at the Cheesecake Factory and since I love, love, love cheesecake, I had to order some and eat the whole thing.  I thought I might allow myself 2 half desserts, so I came close with the Reeces and the cheesecake.  I did eat them all, but I only had 2.  I would consider that a success.

I also found myself walking a lot more than usual and it felt good to figure out that I can walk farther than I thought I could.

I came home, Saturday, feeling pretty good about what had transpired.  After I weighed on Monday and found out that I had just maintained, I went and fell off the wagon for a couple days, eating way too much and eating treats that we had at work.  If you remember, I did send an email out to my office offering a $25 reward for anyone catching me eating treats in the office.  That went out the window, when I discovered that no one was going to bust me.  Oh well.  Again, I have decided to chalk it up to a small misstep and I continue on.  I have subsequently done well these last couple days.  I visit the doctor tomorrow and I'm hoping to see a loss.  I really want to get into the 300s and I hope that happens tomorrow.   I know I have to brace myself in case that doesn't happen.  I don't want to fall off the wagon again just because I'm disappointed.  So, we'll see.

By the way, a shout out to my awesome therapist who let me email him everyday while I was gone for support.  And a shout out to my friend, Dawn, for offering, even though I didn't get the message until after I was back.  And all the rest of you who listen and help in other ways.  Thank you.  I couldn't do it without you.